Holiday Slump

It's been a funny holiday season in our house. I've really been in the holiday spirit, moreso than years past, but not so much in the spirit to concentrate on myself, as my plans included in my last blog posting. I have lost a few pounds in the last month or two, but not because of a healthy plan for living - because I haven't been snacking, and most weekends i'm only eating one meal a day. I'm thinking about food far less as my mind is consumed with other things these days.

The more I think about it, it makes sense to me why I don't want to devote that time and energy. I am keeping myself busy, but I am doing anything I can to avoid really thinking about what's been going on in my life for the last year. When I have the down time, I get really down. I've been keeping myself busy with Christmas baking, holiday cards, gift wrapping and decorating.

Now I can say my baking is nearing an end (only 4 more batches to make - I should have them done by the weekend), my Christmas cards are out, my house is decorated and my shopping is done (most of the wrapping is done, too!). Yesterday it all hit me like a ton of bricks as I took the evening off to relax and found myself lounging on the couch with some sappy movies and a box of tissues.

As I approach the New Year, i'm preparing for reality to hit. I'm working on a household budget, and trying really hard to talk myself into a healthy diet an exercise plan that I can settle into. I've started a list of creative projects for myself, including an Etsy shop to sell some of these projects (I am thinking birthday, birth announcements, wedding and baby shower and thank you cards, mostly). I'm trying to carve out some time to market myself as a freelance designer as well. I think keeping busy is going to be the key to staying on track.

Not exactly a New Year's resolution yet, but I'm getting there. What are you working towards this Holiday season?

Hiatus

I have decided to take an indefinite hiatus from my blog for now. Don't worry, i'll be lurking on the blogs of others for awhile. If you have good thoughts to send my way, please do so. I could use some good vibes!

I'm just busy, preoccupied and don't have the heart right now for blogging. I'll be back at some point, when I'm a better me. Promise.

I'm trying

I've been trying hard to get back here and blog. And mostly it's been neglected because I haven't had a lot of good things to say. So I guess i'm going to vent a bit here. I'm having a rough time these days dealing.

My new job has been really rough. I tried to escape a situation I felt was a dead end and I was working WAY too much, and I jumped into another situation with similar frustrations. Just different clients and (fun) coworkers.

Chris has been battling a skin infection for 4 months. No lie. It's gotten worse and doctors can't figure it out and he FINALLY got into a dermatologist last week for them to prescribe MORE cortizone creams and we wound up in the emergency room last night because he had a severe reaction to the combination of meds.

Chris' grandpa is in the hospital and not doing well. He is 96, but it doesn't make it any easier.

I got into a car accident this morning with our new car. I'm okay, except for some stiffness in my neck and back. I'm crossing my fingers that it feels better, not worse tomorrow. It was not my fault, but there were five cars involved, and the car that was at fault only has state minimum coverage - which in ohio means $7500 that has to be split between all the cars that were damaged. And I realize it could be worse, but i'm REALLY upset to have to fork over $500 for a deductible on this car that we JUST BOUGHT and the accident was NOT my fault, and we've been working REALLY HARD to get our credit card debt paid off, and that takes a big chunk out of what we can pay off this month.

Oh yeah, and through all the stresses, i've gained weight. At least 10 pounds. I have three pairs of work pants that I can't wear right now because they are so uncomfortable.

::::and i'm done::::

What a Crappy Day!

Boy oh boy!

• I started my day with an 8am Dentist Appointment. Let me tell you how fun those are.
• I got into work by 9am - the latest i've ever gotten there yet, because the latest i've been there before this was 8:30 am, when i've been told we start officially at 9am. I got lectured on being "late" even though I notified my bosses about my appointment.
• My web filters at my new job now block gmail. Ugh.
• They FORGOT to transfer my email and i lost everything for the last two weeks and still have no email.
• I didn't take lunch until 3pm because of work insanity.
• Had to spend said lunch getting a new phone because last night when I dropped it in the cupholder of my car, I forgot there was a glass of iced tea there.
• I worked until 7:15pm.
• I couldn't find my car in the parking garage.
• After finally finding it i tripped and fell, skinned my knee, jammed two toes, and have some nice bruises on knees and elbow.
• I am really sore and stiff and had to call and bail on canvassing for Obama tonight - something that really really means a lot to me.
• Cried in the car on the way home talking to my Mom. Thank goodness for her. I don't know what I'd do without her!

I think i'm going to self-medicate with an Oktoberfest beer now!